Leaving Tonight for New Orleans!!!

I am all packed and ready to go. I am leaving my house at 4:00 am to catch my plane to New Orleans. I am super excited!!! I will be gone for 12 days. So I am going to bed at around 9:00 and getting up at 3:00. I will sleep on the plane.
I will try and keep my posts up while I am out there if I get the chance to get online. I can not promise anything. But I will try.

~~~~HAVE A FANTASTIC 4TH OF JULY EVERYONE~~~~

Off on Fridays!!!

A person can get used to being off every Friday. It is now summer school and we do not work on Fridays during summer school because it is a way to conserve energy. If they do not have to run the a/c in school for three days, or run the buses on Friday, they think it will save energy and money. So about 2 years ago, we went to working only 4 days a week during summer school. Well I have to admit, I really like having Fridays off. Even though I absolutely love my job, it is nice to have a 3 day weekend all summer long. Today I had a Dr. appointment this morning then I went grocery shopping for the 2 weeks that I will be in New Orleans. I spent a dam fortune on trying to make sure there is enough food in here for all these boys.

So let me tell you what has been going on here with me for the past few weeks. I, we, have been under so much stress lately because of Sam not working again. It has only been my income. And it has been Very very very hard making ends meet. WELL because of the stress and me working non stop for what seems like forever, I was purely EXHAUSTED the other week and I passed out in school and I had to go to the ER. They said that I am pushing by body too much and I need to relax or I am going to end up having a heart attack or a stroke. So I took off of work for three days and the weekend and I shut myself out of the WORLD!!! I needed to just chill and get back into reality. I am pushing myself too much because we need to survive and Sam can't get a job right now. We have been looking every where and for anything and he is being a little too picky about the kind of job he wants. So it has been very stressful. But better things are coming. My Friend called me the other day and one thing led to another and Sam is going to start a new job in July after the fiscal year starts. He will be working at Del State University as a Carpenter for the dorms and apartments they have there on campus. He is going to be temporary for the first 60 days and then if they like him and he works out, then he will become permanent. So I am excited about that because I really really really don't know how much long we can survive like this. I work too dam much and I can not keep us going any longer on just my income alone. Good thing it is summer now, because summer for me is Extra money when I work. So dam straight I am working summer school, minus the time I am in New Orleans, but that is an all EXPENSE paid trip so I don't have to worry about any money for this trip, thank God.

Anyway, I have not updated my weight loss in what seems like forever. I don't even know what the last total was that I posted about. BUT on July 25th it will be exactly 2 years since I have had my surgery and I am doing FANTASTIC!!! There for a little while I was not loosing any more weight at all. I was not gaining either, I was just staying the same for what seemed like 3 or 4 months. I thought I was done loosing weight and I was fine with that. AS long as I maintained that I would have been fine. But in the last month, more weight has been coming off of me and I have lost a total of 176 lbs so far and I can not believe I was even carrying that much around to begin with. I can not believe how better I feel and how much more active I am and how much more clothes fit me. I have to get new clothes frequently because of so much weight loss. But I have some really cool friends that have been giving me clothes so I don't have to buy any. That's good, cus you know I can't afford anything right now for nothing.

When I get some extra money, I have to buy a new camera. I don't have a working camera right now so I have not posted any pictures on here in like forever. Hopefully I can get a picture of me posted on here when it hits my 2 year anniversary.

Well I am getting off here to play on my facebook. I am addicted to my games on there. It is so funny.

~~~~HAVE A WONDERFUL WEEKEND EVERYONE~~~~

Going to NEW ORLEANS!!!!

I am almost Packed and Ready to Leave!!! LOL. I am leaving on Sunday morning at 4:00 am to catch my flight to New Orleans, Louisiana for the Annual National Education Association Representative Assembly and I am SUPER EXCITED!!!! This is my 3rd year going to the NEA/RA and if you have ever been to it before you know what I am talking about. There will be about 10,000-12,000 people there under the same roof all for the same reason I am there. To vote on all the policies, bylaws, rules, regulations, and business of today's public education. And it is incredible the amount of positive energy there is in the room from all the passionate people who work with our students every single day in our country. IT is one of the most exciting Highlights of my Year as an Educator. I am hooked!! I went to my very first one in Washington DC in 2008 and the EXPERIENCE WAS AMAZING!!!! Something I will never ever forget. SO much Fun, Excitement, Energy, Enthusiasm, Work, and on and on with the adjectives to describe it.
So this year it is in New Orleans. One of the the cities in the United States I have ALWAYS wanted to go to. One because one of their favorite colors is PURPLE (you know the Marti Gras)? Two because of the food I have heard so much about. Three because of the music and the Jazz that is all around that city. I really love music and I think Jazz is so relaxing and smooth and I love to just sit and chill and listen to some jazz music sometimes. So I am really really looking forward to seeing New Orleans for the first time and I am looking forward to all the city and the culture has to offer. I am leaving on Sunday June 27th and I will be back home on Thursday July 8th. So I will be away from Sam and the boys for almost 2 weeks. Man what are they gonna do with out me? LOL. I know one thing, they will EAT everything there is in this house while I am gone. Man these boys have been eating up a storm lately. I guess it is because school is out and they have been home and they are bored.
So besides going to New Orleans, things have been going pretty good around here. We are hoping and praying that Sam can start his job on July 1st. He got a job with the State at Del State University but he can not start till after the fiscal year starts which is on July 1st. So we are not sure if he is starting on July 1st or waiting till that Monday which will be on July 5th. Anyway you look at it, he will be starting his new job in July and boy do we really need him to work again. He has been out of a job again now for about 3 months. So we have been struggling so much again it is ridiculous. So much STRESS it just Plain SUCKS!!!!

Well I am getting off of here now and I will try and post something on here while I am in New Orleans. I can not promise anything though but I will try as long as I have Internet access I will try and post something on here.

~~~HAVE A FANTASTIC WEEKEND~~~

~~~THINK OF ME WHILE I AM ON MY PLANE TO NEW ORLEANS~~~

Starting Fresh!!!!

Do you know how long it has been since I have posted anything on here? I know it has been like MONTHS!!! This is so unlike me. I don't know what happened. I was thinking that people don't even read my posts or don't even care what is going on with my life anymore, so I just stopped writing about my life. But then I realized that the whole reason I created this blog was to have an escape sort of thing. A place I can go to write down what I am feeling and what is going on in my life, sort of like a "virtual diary" type of thing. So even if no body ever reads what I post on here anymore, at least I have a way to express how I feel and what is going on. So I decided to START FRESH!!! And begin to write in my blog again even if no one ever reads it ever again.

So Let me start by saying that I am doing a lot better now. I have been under so much STRESS lately because of Sam not working again and having absolutely NO MONEY to pay our bills. I have picked up a second job, taking care of a little girl who has disabilities in her home. I work EVERY Night of the week, either I work with her or I have a meeting of some kind that keeps me out of the house, every single night. Well That was taking a REAL BIG toll on me, physically, mentally, emotionally, psychology, you name it; and I LOST IT!!! Last week, I had what I believed was a nervous break down!!! I collapsed from pure EXHAUSTION and I could not function AT ALL!!! I slept for 3 days. I did not go to work, I did not do any house work, I did not talk to Anyone, I did not really eat, I didn't DO A DAM thing for 3 whole days and I think it really scared Sam to death. He was really concerned about me. Since then I have slowed up a lot, went to the Dr to talk to them about getting on some medicine, and I only work 3 days a week at night now instead of 6. My bills are PILING Up but I don't want to kill myself trying to make ends meet, it is not good.

So a good thing happened while I was home for those 3 days. One of my friends called, and I really don't even know why I answered the phone but I did (I really didn't want to talk to anyone) but something told me I should answer the phone when Pam called me. So when I answered the phone she said to me, are you feeling ok, you sound sick. I told her, the only thing that will make me feel better is if Sam can get a job and we can get out of the hole we are in. Well, her boyfriend was sitting next to her, he was on his lunch break from work, one thing led to another and SAM is starting a brand new job with her boyfriend on July 1st. They have to wait till July 1st because of the fiscal year thing. Anyway, he is going to be a carpenter at Delaware State University College. Taking care of all the Dorms and Apartment buildings. There is over 800 units there and they need a carpenter really really bad. So Tony, the boyfriend of my friend Pam, said he is going to hire him definitely and he is going to start on July 1st. MAN JULY 1st could not come soon enough. Sam will be temporary for the first 60 days and then if they like him and he works out, he will become permanent and get benefits and all that. So HOPEFULLY everything works out and things will start looking up and we will be able to get back on our feet again. I will keep you all posted about that.

I am leaving for New Orleans next Sunday and I can not wait for that. I will be gone for 10 days. I can not wait. No laundry, dishes, cooking, cleaning, working, no nothing!!! Yes it will be a conference and I will be in meeting type of things all day and working, but it is a different type of working. So I am so excited about that. Then when I get back after that, I will be home for 10 days and then I will be flying to Minneapolis, Minnesota for a week for another conference. I am super excited about that one because I got chosen for this training and only 20 people in the whole UNITED STATES got chosen for this and I am one of those 20 people. So I will be doing a lot of traveling this summer along with working summer school. SO I will be very very busy in the next 2 months but Hopefully with Sam starting working and things gonna get better, we should be alright again.

Today is Tyler's Birthday!!!! My BABY BOY is now 12 years old. Can you believe that he is almost a teenager now? I can't believe I have 3 teenage boys now. Wow where has the time gone? Yesterday was Lil Sam's Birthday and he is 17!!! Talk about feeling OLD. My boys are such great kids. All three of them got their end of the year report cards and all three of them are on the honor roll and all three of them passed and are doing wonderful. Sam will be a SENIOR in High School next year can you believe that? Cody will be a Freshman in high school and Tyler will be in 7th grade. So they are all doing Fantastic. They are not doing anything this summer at all except saying home chilling because we have NO money for them to do anything. Lil Sam is looking for a job for this summer but they are really hard to come by around here. But he is still looking every day. He wants to work so he can try and get a car of his own. Maybe one day something will come up and he will find a job.

Well I said I was starting Fresh and since then I think I have written a book so I better get off of here now and leave some more news for tomorrow.

HAVE A WONDERFUL FATHER'S DAY EVERYONE!!!

ENJOY YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS!!!!